My personal experience with prescription medication has been a complete downfall mentally, emotionally, and physically. Since my early 20’s I had been prescribed multiple medications, Everything from Anti-depressants to Anti-biotics. For years my biggest battle was Stress, Anxiety, & inadequate sleep. Clonazepam was prescribed for me to handle daily stress. My dose was 2mgs every night before bed as well as a secondary bottle for panic attacks & surgery for the dentist. I have taken this drug every day for many years and never once did I think the outcome of not having this drug in my system would damage & cause so much harm. First and foremost, I was never told this drug was fatal if you just stop taking it, not once not ever!

I am beyond thankful for the support getting off of it & very lucky I didn’t go into a coma or have my heart stop beating.  I didn’t plan for this to happen, it just did. My doctor being out of town forgetting to add refills on my prescriptions, the pharmacist said she would be back Monday, and to buy melatonin as a replacement, I figured I'd be fine for the weekend until my Doctor was back. Day 1 started off moody, quiet, no energy, just filled with anger and sadness for no reason, no concept of happiness. Day 2 I woke up with motivation, still moody but trying to keep busy. Later that night I was in bed watching TV feeling withdrawn. My body got so cold so fast I couldn’t feel my hands or feet. I uncontrollably started crying, I sat up to get water & I fell back on my pillow and started drooling out of my mouth (Convulsing). Trying to call for help was useless I couldn’t talk, walk, blink or feel anything but my body shaking from my head to my toes. My eyes were open wide & my mind went blank. I felt like someone took over my body and threw away the key to any mental capability.

From what I was told by my Fiancé was that he had walked into the room; I was shaking crying and was not making sense. I couldn’t put words together to say anything, I reacted when he tried taking me to the hospital fighting him off & yelling NO. All I could say was NO. I was having delusions of being on the phone talking with my sister but was just talking to myself. My legs and arm muscles were spasming out of control, not being able to comprehend anything I closed my eyes and fell asleep. Day 3 I woke up as I had just got hit by a train. My head was pounding, I couldn’t think – my eyes were so sensitive to the light I had to go back into bed and close the curtains and put a blanket over my head. I stayed in bed the entire day confused, unable to focus or articulate how I felt to anybody. physically I had zero balance and fell a few times just trying to put on socks. The simple things of getting dressed, washing my face, became overwhelmingly difficult. It was as if I had lost my memory, anything I tried and failed my heart raced, any sudden movement or noise my heart raced. Going in the backyard for fresh air was uncomfortable for me, looking at the sky hurt my eyes. No-one understood how I felt, which made me question myself over and over, am I normal? I was currently taking the TAFYH course and had missed the last two lessons, so Rachel was calling me to find out why she hasn’t heard from me. Later in the afternoon, I had texted her letting her know what I had gone through, and thank God she had a solution. Talking with Rachel Validated what I was feeling which motivated me to get up, get ready and go to her house to pick up an ‘Emergency Protocol’ that she highly stressed. Driving was brand new to me, my heart was racing the entire time until I got home. The emergency protocol was taking 8 Mega multivitamins (MC) at once, 2 CoQ10 as well as a Chinese herb AD-C to help with the anxious feelings and stress as needed. I had to do this for 3x day. I tried my hardest to take all the vitamins possible but again just swallowing pills was a mission for me. For the next 48 hours, the only thing I could focus on was getting those herbs into my system, not long after I began feeling in and out of myself again. After 2-3 days with the emergency protocol, I couldn’t believe I had my balance back not only physically but mentally I felt like my brain was starting to become stable. Every day for the next week I was getting better at remembering the small things, I could walk faster without getting the spins, most important had a great appetite.  I did not take the full dose at first because I could not get them in.

Once I felt different that’s all I wanted to do was get these products in me. Every day I am learning my triggers and how to control my anxiety, I don’t feel numb anymore, Feelings of excitement that I haven't felt in years are back, my eyes are clear again. This was a huge breakthrough for me, a whirlwind experience that I can't ever forget. Rachel says that if I wouldn’t have taken this protocol sooner, I wouldn’t have had the seizure.